I did it! I did it! Last Thursday my twins turned a year. Let me tell you I deserve a damn trophy. The first year is no joke people, especially being my first. It was literally a never ending repeating cycle of diaper changes, feedings, naps, baths and bedtimes. Over and over and over. It went by super slow and in the blink of an eye all in the same breath. I feel some relief making it through the first year, although I know it’s just the beginning.
I would love to give a list of profound advice for surviving the first year. Some will say alcohol, but I haven’t touched it almost two years so I can’t say that’s the answer. Also, I won’t feed you the bullshit of sleep when they sleep. I hate when people say that. What does that even mean? It means the house would never get done, bottles would never have been washed and that meant for me that my babies wouldn’t have gotten any pumped milk. Everyone just wants to throw that phrase around as gospel and it drives me mad. Honestly, I think the only advice I can give is to roll with the punches. Every day is going to bring Some thing new. Once you figure one thing out, life is going to laugh in your face and it’s all going to change. Once I would get a grasp of my schedule and the babies mood everything would change. They are constantly adapting and learning Some thing new. It’s amazing to watch but frustrating at the same time.
Also, enjoy it. They grow up so fast and I was so eager for them to hit their milestones and to learn but really I just want to swaddle them and hold them again. Now they are wild little boys that are toddling around. But this time last year we had only been home a couple days, Gabriel had just gotten out of the NICU and they were tiny little jaundiced babies.
I feel so incredibly blessed and beyond excited I made it through this year. I’ve cried, been a walking zombie, made sweatpants my clothing of choice, cried some more and laughed more than ever. I also have more than realized that my husband is my person and we make one hell of a team. It’s amazing I can sincerely say that being twin parents will either make your relationship or break it.